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How often do you cry?

My Pent Up Emotions Our society has the standard that men for the most part don’t cry. Some believe it’s because we’re emotionless and others think men stop themselves from crying because it is seen as unmanly. For me, that assumption does have some truth in it. For the most part I don’t cry often and when I am really upset I do hold myself back from it, but not for the reasons one might think. It’s not because I think boys don’t cry and my emotions should be buried since I’m a man or because my life is simple and I have no reason to. I actually try to be open with myself regarding my emotions, because I think that standard is unhealthy. I personally don’t cry often but I believe the status quo for how much men cry is wrong. Well, why don’t I cry often? In the past it was simply the way I was raised. In my culture men are expected to never cry, as it is seen as a sign of weakness and femininity. Whenever I cried as a kid I was met with disappointment and the expectation to do bette...

Have you ever felt embarrassed by the things that you used to like? My Past Addiction to Gaming

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Have you ever felt embarrassed by the things that you used to like? My Past Addiction to Gaming For the longest time I had an all too great addiction to gaming. Almost all of us have played a video game at least once. Some people avoid or don’t understand them but for many it’s a popular form of entertainment. For me it was a major part of my life which I have come to regret, and I feel embarrassed looking back on it. I’ve realized it was detrimental to me, my social life, and my conflict with procrastination, and getting reminded of it carries some shame every time. I had the biggest issue with an addiction to gaming subbie and freshman year. Those were my first two years at uni and the biggest difference that allowed for me to play more was the new freedoms the school provided. Suddenly I had over two hours of free time in the middle of school every other day with a free period and lunch combined. Me and my friends all got the same free period and would spend the hour playing differe...

What role does procrastination play in your life?

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Prolonged Procrastination Procrastination has had an impact on my academic journey for as long as I can remember. I've always had a tendency to make excuses and put off assignments, finishing them much closer to the deadline than what's typical. The thing is I haven't had to face the consequences of my procrastination in very many cases. I've always gotten a wave of focus and concentration at some point near the deadline for a homework or an assignment, which meant I could keep procrastinating on assignments and still do well on them. I’ve maintained this compromise with procrastination for a while, but recently I faced a challenge that completely took advantage of my weakness that I had kept at bay for so long. Last year I went on sabbatical to my home country Libya. We went for a school year with the intention of me returning to Uni the following year. For this reason, Uni had to look over and approve the courses and curriculum I would be taking there so that I could ...

What objects tell the story of your life?

Parts of an incomplete whole. One’s identity is deeply interconnected with their nationality. The latter represents the soil they were born on and the expectations it brings. It has big impacts on the setting of your life, which in turn triggers a chain reaction of countless other experiences changing or occurring. My entire family is from Libya, with the vast majority of them born and raised there. There are minimal exceptions where family has stayed abroad for some time, however my immediate family and I are the only ones who’ve moved to the US. Still, when they first moved everyone in the family at the time had been born in Libya, which includes my older sister. I am one of two in my family who was born here. From the debate of moving to Libya and leaving where I was raised to the constant mix up of my nationality it’s quite difficult to fully identify with one country or culture. My blood and roots are almost purely Libyan, yet living there feels strange and unfamiliar. I know the...

Do you wish you could return to a moment from your past?

Unexpected Uplift Memorable moments can happen from the most unexpected scenarios, such as a PE class final. This is because the best experiences aren’t just the most enjoyable, but the ones that fill you up with warm feelings. To pass PE near the end of the year everyone needed to run a 5k and reach a target time. On the day of the run I got sick so I had to sit out and walk the track with my injured friend. The coach encouraged us to cheer on our classmates as they passed us to motivate them. I was eager to take on the task as I enjoy uplifting people. PE class came along and the final began. After some time groups of runners began passing us one by one. As they did, I would clap and cheer with all that I could, pushing them onwards. The race proceeded like normal, and I cheered my heart out on each lap. This went on until a point near the end of the run. I saw a lone runner ahead of us and as they approached I began clapping and calling out encouraging words. Suddenly in a harsh ton...